Another year just past and today, I'm here again (after left for a year).
I'd check on dimsum's blogspot, and they didn't update their blog too. I guess everyone is busy now.
I don't know. Maybe less people reading the blog will be more secure to me as I can wrote more. Ha!
It's been 3 years I struggle. And finally on 7th January 2012, I made the decision to resign from my current post as a stockist. Started to look for a better career. One things never change in me is I still believe that KL is a place for people like me who love to explore and never want to settle down. I know that it's been a little late to make such decision after 3 years as I already cross the teenager's life. Even when looking for a job, I have to go for a second column (if you can understand it^^).
After sending the resignation letter, it's really a big turning point to me. A new challenging life to me. In KL, you have to wake up at 5am if you want to avoid the traffic. But I believe that I will be able to adapt to it. Definitely can !
I was so excited even before handing the resignation letter as I know that my life will totally change. Everyday from now on, I keep on planning for a better future. I believe people who plan well is better than those who plan to fail. Got plan better than no plan right?
Mom, Dad, and sis, rest in peace!
Happy new year! Happy dragon year! Happy 2012!
SEE THE HAPPINESS THRU MY SMILE
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Monday, June 14, 2010
Upgrading myself
I'd join friendster since 2005, facebook and blogging since last 2 years. But only this years I actively blog. Yet, im stil a newbie in this blogging things as i dont know what to blog. I read other's blog and they can really express their feelings and emotions very well.
Sometimes Im a such workaholic. I dont like to have so many free time. Once a week resting is enough for me. Everyday get my 8 hours beauty sleep will make me energitic. I dont believe that every woman was born to stay as a "slave". Meaning a woman should only stay at home, cook, clean the dishes, the clothes, the house, get marry and give birth. When they got old, got dumped, and have more percentage and privileges to be lost in their lives compared with man. I dont believe in fade. Fade is in hand. We can chose what we want to be in future and fight for it. The future belongs to those who believe in what they want, they will get it.Of course, before you get it, u have to fight for it.
I am not searcing for equality. Only for the freedom of choices as i am a girl who believe that my life wasn't fated to end whatever story i was told, and become who i am suppose to be. I tak econtrol of my life because we should be the one who incharge 100% of responsibility and consequences of our own life, how it should be, how we want it to be, and who we want ourselves to be.
Im not a distinct fighter in life. In some situation, i will become followers. Thi sis why i think im not independent enough. There's still lot of things that i cant make own decision and have to wait for others. I know time and tide wait for no man, so what im doing now is learn anything i can to the max.
I kinda numb socializing. That's why i seldom club. I dont know how to dance, how to drink, or communicate with others. I think most of the party people would be bored to death if im with the group so i'd better step back before killing anyone (im still learning in socialing).hehe* But im good in making fun. I love to make people laugh.
I always get myself busy. These days keep on growing my network. I want to achieve financial freedom. I regret that i start late in this buisness. But I move on. Keep on regretting make no changes. I move forward because I want to have quality life in future with having money working for me.*wink*wink
Wishing all of you love..and may God bless all of you beautiful people..Always...
Love always...Ming Phei
Life inspiration
These days, I kept on follow leng yein blog. Her blog becomes my inspiration in life. I love to read her blog. She is such next door girl and fight for her dreams and now she makes it comes true. We are just the same girl just that she start her pathway earlier and now she is successful and i'm still in my comfort zone, fighting for something totally different with my dreams. She is just one year older than me, yet she achieved a lot in her life. I believ that i will succeed as well in my future as I have so many mentors that able to guide me in life pathway. If you are lost in lfie sometimes, go thru her blog (http://www.lengyein.blogspot.com/)and u will be on the right track again. It's jsut a miracles!
I think I am lucky sometimes. I used to struggle what to do and what I want in life and I almost give up what I have. Thank God that I didn't do that. Now I met my mentor who already half way to the succeess pathway. With their guidelines, I believe that I can make all my dreams come true. Robert said, Financial freedom also has a price. If you willing to pay for it, u will make it comes true.
Why many people failed to achieve their goals in life? If you are not achieving your short terms goals, there's no way to achieve the long term goals because you never believe it. They never expect it to happen. They never believe it. Everyone want to go to heaven, but nobody want to die. Everyone want to have the quality lifestyle and financial freedom, but nobody willing to pay the price. SO how are you going to success and dreams come true?
Nothing come easy and there is no free lunch in this world. So if u willing to pay the price, u will have ur dreams come true. Kambate!
I think I am lucky sometimes. I used to struggle what to do and what I want in life and I almost give up what I have. Thank God that I didn't do that. Now I met my mentor who already half way to the succeess pathway. With their guidelines, I believe that I can make all my dreams come true. Robert said, Financial freedom also has a price. If you willing to pay for it, u will make it comes true.
Why many people failed to achieve their goals in life? If you are not achieving your short terms goals, there's no way to achieve the long term goals because you never believe it. They never expect it to happen. They never believe it. Everyone want to go to heaven, but nobody want to die. Everyone want to have the quality lifestyle and financial freedom, but nobody willing to pay the price. SO how are you going to success and dreams come true?
Nothing come easy and there is no free lunch in this world. So if u willing to pay the price, u will have ur dreams come true. Kambate!
Monday, May 31, 2010
Why I am so down?
Everyday I try to fill up all my schedule so that I won't get bored. Yet, after all the busy schedule(all the exercises class), when I drive home, deep in my heart, I felt so lonely. I have friends everywhere, I'm not alone, but I felt lonely. Today, wehn I drive home in the middle of the night, again, I cried. I missed mom. Why why why. Keep on telling myself that I cannot get moody, cannot let myself so down, please cheer up, I'm trying...
Tonight 1028pm, I'm in the shop doing close sales month. My cat, Bobby was disappeared before I closed the shop. This morning when I came, he wasn't there, at the usual place, I felt so guilty and sad. I thought it was dead. People said a good cat will never die in the owner house. SO I thought maybe he was gone. I felt bad as I never treat him good. Since mummy gone, it always starve. Sometimes I don't even feed him fish. It was my fault, because I was too lazy to go to wet market just to buy fish for it. I didn't cook in a long time. The prawn and cabbage stil in the fridge until today. It's been a month. I get lazy everyday. My life is empty. I don't know why I live in the world as I can't do the things that I love. I can't do my favourite jobs. I am alone in this planet. I don't like to talk to sis and bro. I don't know why. Evrytime I talked to them, I lost patient. This is not me. Maybe I'm too far from the God, which results in losing direction in life.
Tonight, I just cry n cry n cry...I am so lonely deep in my heart. Where the happy go lucky Ming gone? Where the strong girl gone? Where the girl who always bring happiness to people around her? where where where???
Tonight 1028pm, I'm in the shop doing close sales month. My cat, Bobby was disappeared before I closed the shop. This morning when I came, he wasn't there, at the usual place, I felt so guilty and sad. I thought it was dead. People said a good cat will never die in the owner house. SO I thought maybe he was gone. I felt bad as I never treat him good. Since mummy gone, it always starve. Sometimes I don't even feed him fish. It was my fault, because I was too lazy to go to wet market just to buy fish for it. I didn't cook in a long time. The prawn and cabbage stil in the fridge until today. It's been a month. I get lazy everyday. My life is empty. I don't know why I live in the world as I can't do the things that I love. I can't do my favourite jobs. I am alone in this planet. I don't like to talk to sis and bro. I don't know why. Evrytime I talked to them, I lost patient. This is not me. Maybe I'm too far from the God, which results in losing direction in life.
Tonight, I just cry n cry n cry...I am so lonely deep in my heart. Where the happy go lucky Ming gone? Where the strong girl gone? Where the girl who always bring happiness to people around her? where where where???
Sunday, May 30, 2010
What do you really want in life?
Again, I stuck in the road to my life.
Oh gosh, it's been a long time since I used english to blog.
I have to say that my english getting worst.Maybe I should start reading n blogging in english. Today only I realized that I can expressed my feelings in english.*Ouch
Everyday I do the same things. What I really want in life is totally different from what I currently do. But I have no choice to keep on continue because I need to be independent. I wish to model, but I can't let go as others do since they can just ask for money if their money is depleted. I want to earn money by myself as I'm good in spending=.=
Everyday I try to fill up my schedule to prevent boring life. But is like things that I'm doing has no benefit.Saturday, sunday and wednesday are my aerobic class. Monday will be step class. Tuesday is yoga class.This is how I spend my time. If i can take all this time and go for recruiting, I believe that I will achieve better in life in 2 years. After what had happened, I've no longer believe in fade. Fade is in hands. Maybe you cannot change what will happen in future, but what you doing now will intermediately affect ur future life, isn't?
What is in my head is all about travelling and enjoying, but do I ever think what should I do to have a better future? I want to model, but I don't know how. I just think of going to slimming centre and trimm my big thigh. Get a sexy "silhouete"(sorry, I don't know how to spell), wich cost me RM6K, then go for modelling class which is about RM2800 and modelling portfolio maybe about few hundreds. All about spending money. But how bout earning? My thinking is simple. I think after I done with all this things, I can get a modelling jobs. For my shop, I will hire another trusted person to handle it so that I can go for the jobs. Will it work? Everyone think modellign is impossible n not real. But I believe in beauty and fame(maybe you will say im ai mu xu rong). Maybe yes I am, I admit that. I wan tot be famous, I want to be on the stage, I want everybody to know me, admire me. But, will it be dreams come true?since I still here doing nothing related to modelling.
Stop saying that "all I need is time". Time and tide wait for no man. So please move forward or you will be regret. I give myself the last time to sit down and think what I really want in life. This is what you should do as well. To get clear with your destination. Be strong to fight for it.
Kambate! I'm going to prepare for later aerobic class at 830pm-930pm. Then, going to attend my neice birthday party.hope that I can control myself from overeating or eating as I'm going to Singapore this friday. I'm going to wear bikiny.hehe.
So later I'm going to drive home alone as well since brother is at Johor.=(
No moody please~
Oh gosh, it's been a long time since I used english to blog.
I have to say that my english getting worst.Maybe I should start reading n blogging in english. Today only I realized that I can expressed my feelings in english.*Ouch
Everyday I do the same things. What I really want in life is totally different from what I currently do. But I have no choice to keep on continue because I need to be independent. I wish to model, but I can't let go as others do since they can just ask for money if their money is depleted. I want to earn money by myself as I'm good in spending=.=
Everyday I try to fill up my schedule to prevent boring life. But is like things that I'm doing has no benefit.Saturday, sunday and wednesday are my aerobic class. Monday will be step class. Tuesday is yoga class.This is how I spend my time. If i can take all this time and go for recruiting, I believe that I will achieve better in life in 2 years. After what had happened, I've no longer believe in fade. Fade is in hands. Maybe you cannot change what will happen in future, but what you doing now will intermediately affect ur future life, isn't?
What is in my head is all about travelling and enjoying, but do I ever think what should I do to have a better future? I want to model, but I don't know how. I just think of going to slimming centre and trimm my big thigh. Get a sexy "silhouete"(sorry, I don't know how to spell), wich cost me RM6K, then go for modelling class which is about RM2800 and modelling portfolio maybe about few hundreds. All about spending money. But how bout earning? My thinking is simple. I think after I done with all this things, I can get a modelling jobs. For my shop, I will hire another trusted person to handle it so that I can go for the jobs. Will it work? Everyone think modellign is impossible n not real. But I believe in beauty and fame(maybe you will say im ai mu xu rong). Maybe yes I am, I admit that. I wan tot be famous, I want to be on the stage, I want everybody to know me, admire me. But, will it be dreams come true?since I still here doing nothing related to modelling.
Stop saying that "all I need is time". Time and tide wait for no man. So please move forward or you will be regret. I give myself the last time to sit down and think what I really want in life. This is what you should do as well. To get clear with your destination. Be strong to fight for it.
Kambate! I'm going to prepare for later aerobic class at 830pm-930pm. Then, going to attend my neice birthday party.hope that I can control myself from overeating or eating as I'm going to Singapore this friday. I'm going to wear bikiny.hehe.
So later I'm going to drive home alone as well since brother is at Johor.=(
No moody please~
Sunday, May 23, 2010
再次梦见妈妈
妈妈再次出现在梦里。这一次，就像之前的梦一样，梦见妈妈还没死。上天给多一次机会她。梦里是现在的五月。条件是我们必须找观音娘娘，Ak Chan和尚，还有其他神，问问他们该怎么做才能让妈妈真正渡过这一劫。否则的话，妈妈将会在七月份真正的离开我们，永不回来了。。只可惜，这是不可能的。。。心好痛。。
今天AV, 整个人都不舒服。。整天躺着。想找个对象聊天也没有。。。心情也变得低落。Aerobic class也得放弃了。嗨。。
还好，今天sign了个BO,很兴奋，至少让我觉得还没到绝望的地步。就像一个朋友说的，为什么要member walk in?如果他们不是member,这样我们才有机会recruit他们啊！说得也有道理。所以，我就铭记于心=）
放工回家途中帮一个顾客送货，结果没想到与她很投缘。原来她也喜欢Pageant这些东西的。好开心啊！至少我们有个共鸣。以后也不害怕没对象倾诉，没人支持我。和她聊天的过程，学到好多好多关于美容的东西。又再次燃起我即将熄灭的心。谢谢你！因为有你的几句话，我决不会放弃自己的梦想，我会继续往前冲！我要你们以我为荣！加油！加油！加油！
Saturday, May 22, 2010
梦见妈妈
昨晚发了个梦。梦里有妈妈，衍伟，大姐，还有哥哥。哥哥最后才出现。梦见我们在妈以前的Cosway店。梦见衍伟是遗憾所在。梦见妈妈是因为思念。这几天总有一个冲动想拨电给爸和妈，但后来又发现，原来他们都不在了。顿时又失落了。一年多过去了，但仿佛一切发生的，只是在昨天。想起当年的我，不禁感慨。生命真的很脆弱。若没有汽车的发明，是不是车祸死亡率也不会增加？空气污染也不会严重？
有个朋友告诉我， 他2008年底从国外回来就谈恋爱，但一年后却分手了。那时我想起的，是与妹妹度过的最后一个月。永远没有想到，那会是我和她的最后一个月。想起妹妹做我和大姐的和事老，想起妹妹羡慕我瘦身的成果，想起妹妹在我生病时，因为我没开风扇睡觉，所以她跑到客厅去睡。嗨嗨。。。
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