Hurt~I MISS YOU

There no hates and loves in my heart.
I feel nothing.
I have nothing to hate, nothing to love.
Everything just gone, just change.
I wish that it was just a nightmare for me.
I missing u so badly..
u no longer with me.
I cant tell how mush I miss u..
I thought my appreciation is enough,but
then i realized that it was just too little.
I'm so suffer.Crying almost everynite doesn't help.
Hope that i can reach u,but, is it possible??
i wish to see u, but, i was so scare..
i wish i was brave enough.

why it should be me??
why everything happened to me??
i cant take it, the punishment is to heavy.
i never think this would really happened on me.

everything left with just memories.
everything that u did or told me became the last thing.
that is the last time i talk to u,
the last time i smile & laugh to u,
the last time u accompany me when i was sick (sis),
the last time u came into my room n ask me to go for doc (dad),
the last time u remind me to rewarm the food (mom),
but i don't even have the last chance to hug u and say goodbye...

I will never forget the rainy days..
The days that i looked at u for the last time.
The day that u were sent back with the van.
the day that i saw injuries on ur face n body.
i will never forgive the one who caused this.NEVER!!

I wish i can turn back the time.
Then only i have enough time to share with u.
I wish that u know how painful is my heart seeing others with their family??
How happy they are celebrate new years with family?
I wish that u will never came here...
Plzzzzzzzzzz