Happy valentine

I woke up in the morning with only one thing in my head.
waiting for ur explaination..
I got one msg in my inbox.
U deny for what happened..
I have no point to trust u anymore.
Now i just see if u still find any ways to save our relationship.
or else, we break up..

Went out with Angel, Suh Wei, Dick and CK..
we watched movie in Midvalley-Wedding days
I kept thingking bout u for the whole movie.
At the end of the day,
i cried thinking of my parents and u..

I wish i could just text u n say how much i love u and miss u..
but i cant, because im the one who decide to break up,
and i cant trust u anymore.

U do call me in the midnight.
but i didn't pick up the phone.
I supposed to picked up,
just because i want to know what are u going to say..

I still miss u...

Hurtful valentine for me,thanx to u

If i were a boy

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

This is the advice that i gave to him
How hurtful it is finding that ur boyfren is so close with another girl,
one day before valentine...
Congrates to myself get cheated by my first love..

Everything that u said just a lies to me
How stupid am i,now only realized
Everything that my parents said was true
It make me felt regret that much
Arguing with them just because of u
Argued with them for a stranger, a cheater,a lier

So unlucky..
But fortunately,i wont die because of him.
I wont die because of such guy.

Someone ask him if i really love him,
or i just take him for granted
Seems like it happened another way round.
He the one who taking me for granted

If i were a boy,
i will be a better man
Cause i know how it feel like being hurt

No guy can truly be trusted

Fed up...

again-hurtful

Never think that the first valentine that i think i will celebrate is,
the most hurtful valentines for me.
How i celebrate my valentines??
Such a shame..
Its totally different with others..
The way i celebrate is,
crying for the whole nite...

I miss u...
The person that i will never have chance to say "I Love You" to
Stay in peace
I try my best to stand up again
Try my best to be strong

I regret that i argued with u
Regret that i never listen to u
Regret that i didn't say good bye eveytime i talked to u,
just because i didn't agree for what u said
Now i realize how naive am i..
How stupid am i..
Im sorry dad,
sorry mum....
I will never have the chances to lsiten to ur advice anymore...
please guide me
Please let me dream bout u

I miss u...

Hurt~I MISS YOU

There no hates and loves in my heart.
I feel nothing.
I have nothing to hate, nothing to love.
Everything just gone, just change.
I wish that it was just a nightmare for me.
I missing u so badly..
u no longer with me.
I cant tell how mush I miss u..
I thought my appreciation is enough,but
then i realized that it was just too little.
I'm so suffer.Crying almost everynite doesn't help.
Hope that i can reach u,but, is it possible??
i wish to see u, but, i was so scare..
i wish i was brave enough.

why it should be me??
why everything happened to me??
i cant take it, the punishment is to heavy.
i never think this would really happened on me.

everything left with just memories.
everything that u did or told me became the last thing.
that is the last time i talk to u,
the last time i smile & laugh to u,
the last time u accompany me when i was sick (sis),
the last time u came into my room n ask me to go for doc (dad),
the last time u remind me to rewarm the food (mom),
but i don't even have the last chance to hug u and say goodbye...

I will never forget the rainy days..
The days that i looked at u for the last time.
The day that u were sent back with the van.
the day that i saw injuries on ur face n body.
i will never forgive the one who caused this.NEVER!!

I wish i can turn back the time.
Then only i have enough time to share with u.
I wish that u know how painful is my heart seeing others with their family??
How happy they are celebrate new years with family?
I wish that u will never came here...
Plzzzzzzzzzz