I miss u...

Went to Kuen Cheng for friendly match. We lost.For sure cos no practise. Game end at 5pm.Me, PinLeng &Sau went to Ahmad Maidin to eat. Came back to condo, theres no one here..Lonely.. I didn't take my bath and i went to sleep.. Not really can sleep cos sticky, by the way I play the music as well.. I keep thinking bout my parents I miss them so much.. I just cried...very badly.. Everything is in my mind.I remember their face, their smile. I miss my little sister. Why is this happened to me?why me??? I look at the hair serum,I wish that I can just drink it, then I would be able to see them. I miss them, I want to talk to them.. But I afraid they will scold me then..in the heaven. And for sure, I will go to hell. How much I wish they never came to KL that time, How much I wish I let my sister took flight, How much I wish I didn't let them go, How much I wish everything never happened... Daddy, mummy, Shareen.. Where are u guys??I miss u all... Can u guys talk to me in my dreams?? At least once?? Where are u guys? Will u guys come back again?? Mom, I miss ur cooking, Dad, I never have chance to feel ur loves again, Shareen, I never have second chance to ask u accompany me for the next pageant... I regret...

Tears

Came back from the lab in the evening.. Look at the empty room, I was so lonely.. Theres no one here.. I cant charge my phone, cos my charger is not here.. Look at the beds, the wall, ceiling... Iget my msg from my dear. Suddenly, my tears dropping... Realized that i miss him so much... I feel so depressed n lonely... I miss my parents... where are they now.. They are not in my dreams also. Not even once=( I took my lunch alone since everyone left here... But i know theres always someone else can take dinner with me.. Plan to play ball, but heard there futsal.. Tomorrow is the friendly match,am I ready for it?? Last nite "Watchmen"was not interesting, a bored movie instead. Sis was here..but she going to S'pore tmr with Chris.. I want to follow.But alreaqdy prmise Pin Leng to play with her for the friendly.. What a good friend=) I miss my parents, my friends, my dear, my dog, my cat, everything that I know...

To my dearest dear..

Finally, i think bout it carefully.. and i get the answer i want.. from being so suffer from everything or thinking too much I came with one final answer: I decided to love u fully and trully from my heart. I will give u all I have.. Love u for everything no matter ur good side or bad side.. I will learn to appreaciate all the loves u give to me.. Our relatioship is just started my dear. Are u ready for this??